deeper level of intelligence

I have been thinking more about my presentation and after speaking with my tutor I am very afraid that I did not do what I was asked, to be fair, nothing was ever clear during the whole bridging process and I hope it was not some sort of test to separate us because I deserve to be on the third year more than anyone! Anyway, little off topic there...I need to look at my (hopefully) Final Major Project from an intellectual and informed point of view and not simply take visual inspiration and interpreting it. I gots to growww. And I will. Starting now. I'm reading Plato and Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, a Buddhist monk who writes inspirational life changing books. There is more to my investigation into my psychological profile, I just need to find it. There will be something to learn, some question to raise but right now I am exhausted from doing an extra month of classes. I will rest for a few weeks and then get back on it when I find out if I'm on the third year or not!! Until then I leave you with my folk lover

a love of the unseen world dominates the stage

This title couldn't be more exact. I have a deep interest, no actually, LOVE, of anything that I cant see. I am a reiki level one, so I use energy, life force, to heal. You cant usually see energy, you can feel it if you are open to it but it is not a solid form in this human realm anyway. Talk of ghosts, spirits and energies makes my mind spin. I like to think that I have or could have an insight into the ethereal world. If there is not something more I will lose faith in my world!

Back to the analysis...it says that"You are a sensitive and idealistic person who is not wholly comfortable within the limitations and boundaries of material life; for like Plato, you crave the Good, the True and the Beautiful - and if you are unable to find glimpses of your dream amidst the mundane...you can are capable of becoming depressed or even ill."

It sounds slightly extreme but is true to a certain extent.

I presented my b on Thursday, I was a mess and dont think I said anything coherently. I hope I made some sense!! Find out soon.

I need to look for more inspiration...I keep going back to Eduardo Reciefe everytime I have a project. I love his work, its his collages. They make my heart skip..I dont know what it is about it though, maybe the colour pallete he uses and the way he uses snippets of text like thoughts or quotes. But it's his collages that I love..Why do I love fragments and patterns? Oh! I do love fragments and patterns...maybe an underlying theme.....??!


Jordan introduced me to the wonderful world (and art) of Keetra Dean Dixon. This is one of her invitations. Love love love! Endless possibilities. I love the tiny knots on the string!


I need more....

straight to z...

Confronting the Chaos of the Inner World was the working title of my personal project last term. It is from concluding section of my analysis which summarises, well, my inner world.

sketchbook page

one of the final images

But I feel that, in a way, I concluded my journey of creativity before I had even begun to explore it. I could have taken it to various different places but I hadn't explored the areas it summarised if that makes sense. How could I fully confront the inner chaos if I didnt realise what that was?? So, my a to b is to back track from z. I will continue to use the section titles as themes but I will explore them, through film, photography, possibly installation(?!), cross stitch, make-up, hair and styling...

my a

I presented my 'a' to the class last week. I remember standing there, looking at them and rambling. nonsense. Apparently I was coherent and articulate and clear about my 'a' even though I never said half of what I had scribbled down beforehand. I would like to have said:

"My a is me. My mind. I need to explore my creativity. It is a need because i believe everything in the world, or my world at least is connected and I can become depressed or ill if I dont. The mind and body need to flow together in a sense, for example, if I dont drink water, my eye twitches. If I get stressed I get bad skin. But when I make pictures or sing(or something) I have so much energy and spirit and all my ailments disappear. I know when I am blocking something because my body tells me in some way. It just takes a while to find exactly what I am denying. So my starting point for a to b is my Psychological Horoscope Analysis. I plan to use the different sections in the analysis to explore my world and my mind and hopefully I will discover something"


We were given a blank canvas and asked to show our 'a' on it at our presentation to symbolise that we have to forget about the FdA and start afresh with bridging.

Here is my effort...







I now need to start working towards my 'b'...