meltdown

I cant concentrate. I have been sat in IT at Lime Grove listening to the delightful first years trying to grasp photoshop and browsing asos while being the noisy little shits. SHUT UP!!! All I want to do is find a place to sit and read and get my head together for my desire tutorial. But no. Every room is locked. So I am here, trying to block out the nonsense and think of my topic for desire. What is desire? What do I desire? Why do I desire? How do I desire? How does desire relate to everyhting in the world?? Who cares?? Sorry. Im disgruntled. I want to go to bed for a thousand hours. I have nothing to show. My main areas of interest at this point are as always, psychology, spirituality, buddhism (which I must must must learn more about!) and the emotional side of everything. I am frustrated that I just dont know where to begin. I dont understand theorists and how they all intertwine. I have no opinion that can be decribed in comprehensible english. Maybe I should go back to school and re do English Higher. AAGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!